striking reality

i'm currently under terrible mood..

i do know, cuz i already know.
but it is too stupid for me that i still go for it.

there's so many out there thinking that i am s good person. [maybe a quarter] but am i? it felt bad to know, they're just doing what i am doing..and i thoroughly feel horrible.

what about others when they found out?

i want it so badly, that i forgot reality