an honest relationship

Every thing you told me that night, reminded me of how much of an asshole I was. I cried, cuz I know deep down inside, for so many many times that I want to break his heart for you. I always knew it was stupid, but it hurts to know that my intention was always there. I kinda hate myself. If it wasn't because of logic, I would have let him go and ran to you, knowing it was impossible.

tbh, I have past experience just like you, and I just wasn't the one that was left behind. I always let go first in a relationship, for some reasons. I'm always the one that disappoints the other and things never affected me somehow. Until I met you. I really can't tell, why you. People ask me the same question too. I don't know.

If I could turn back time with you, probably you'll do something really different. But I won't. I want to know you right where I know you. I would never learn how to fall in love, if it wasn't for you. You taught me how falling in love feels like. And I guess, I need to learn it the hard way. I told you that I believe that some people only falls deeply that someone, once. I somehow am convinced that it was you. Maybe in the future, someone else, Idk. But at the moment, yeah.