in kilometers?
I am already in the fourth week. the fourth week that i have not met my boy. I guess we are very consumes with whatever both of us are working on. In a way, I was stubborn too. I didn't want to go back partially because I didn't want to meet him, knowing he didn't have time for me. I just purposely made myself busy too.
Week after week, I cannot help but to really notice the distance increases. Not in kilometers. I remember he sang once,
"Chest to chest, Nose to nose, Palm to palm, We were always just that close, Wrist to wrist, Toe to toe, Lips that felt just like the inside of a rose.
I am trying not to repeat what I've done before. I am really trying. But I guess I didn't try hard enough. Intentionally or otherwise, i can't tell. I just felt it. I didn't want to keep it to myself. I waited for sometime, some days because I knew he'd be so busy. Quite obvious when we didn't even talk for more than 5 minutes a day. Then, i guess I couldn't help it. I told my boy. He says everything's gonna be alright. He said, "I Promised". My boy didn't explain or wanting to beat around the same topic. Then I realize, he must be busy at the moment. I told him to do what he was doing then.
I was right. He was shooting for a wedding the whole day. It's funny to know, that I don't know what is he doing, or where were he, meeting who, having class or not etc. When people ask, how's you and your boyfriend? I just kept quiet. I've got no comment.
I have loads of guys friends. just like him. having loads of girl friends. I do notice, the people who are willing to give me their undivided attention, when my boy didn't gave enough for me. Perhaps I was asking for too much.
There's some things that I wanted him to know. I want him to know, I'm still an ordinary girl. I want him to know, no matter how much different I may be from other girls, I still need my boy with me sometimes. And I want him to know, I do get tired sometimes. I want him to know, I can't protect myself sometimes. I want him to know, that I felt intimated sometimes. I want him to know, I don't know how long can I hung on to him, when we aren't even communicating. I want him to know, I'd still try to for us. I want him to know, that I don't need anything else from you, besides your time, for me. I want him to know, that doesn't matter how long has it been, I still feel like crying now. I want him to know, that I need him.
Cheers,
HuiJin Liew
Week after week, I cannot help but to really notice the distance increases. Not in kilometers. I remember he sang once,
"Chest to chest, Nose to nose, Palm to palm, We were always just that close, Wrist to wrist, Toe to toe, Lips that felt just like the inside of a rose.
So how come when I reach out my fingerIt feels like more than distance between us "
I am trying not to repeat what I've done before. I am really trying. But I guess I didn't try hard enough. Intentionally or otherwise, i can't tell. I just felt it. I didn't want to keep it to myself. I waited for sometime, some days because I knew he'd be so busy. Quite obvious when we didn't even talk for more than 5 minutes a day. Then, i guess I couldn't help it. I told my boy. He says everything's gonna be alright. He said, "I Promised". My boy didn't explain or wanting to beat around the same topic. Then I realize, he must be busy at the moment. I told him to do what he was doing then.
I was right. He was shooting for a wedding the whole day. It's funny to know, that I don't know what is he doing, or where were he, meeting who, having class or not etc. When people ask, how's you and your boyfriend? I just kept quiet. I've got no comment.
I have loads of guys friends. just like him. having loads of girl friends. I do notice, the people who are willing to give me their undivided attention, when my boy didn't gave enough for me. Perhaps I was asking for too much.
There's some things that I wanted him to know. I want him to know, I'm still an ordinary girl. I want him to know, no matter how much different I may be from other girls, I still need my boy with me sometimes. And I want him to know, I do get tired sometimes. I want him to know, I can't protect myself sometimes. I want him to know, that I felt intimated sometimes. I want him to know, I don't know how long can I hung on to him, when we aren't even communicating. I want him to know, I'd still try to for us. I want him to know, that I don't need anything else from you, besides your time, for me. I want him to know, that doesn't matter how long has it been, I still feel like crying now. I want him to know, that I need him.
Cheers,
HuiJin Liew
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