Happy Valentine's Day, baby.

I think long-distance relationship is difficult to have, and very much difficult to maintain because it takes a lot of courage to pursue. I didn't thought I'll get myself into one, but, yes, I am now. It isn't miles away, or the other side of the globe;

We are technically, 100km away from each other. 

When we first met, I was back in KL. Somewhat, somehow a better place where things and time is at a flexible account. Currently in Nilai, weekdays I am studying but I will try to get back in the weekend. I travel back almost every weekend. It's not a very long drive. At my pace, 30 minutes is not a problem. But I get tired because constant traveling with very little rest over the weekend doesn't prepare me well to face the coming week alone. 

My love is a very busy man. Sometimes, he has shooting to do, he has places to go, he has errands to run. Sometimes, I too, didn't have enough time for him. Even when I get back on weekends, I'd be meeting other friends, running my errands and try to spend time with my family. So, sometimes, even though we're so near in distance, we don't meet each other often either. 

At one point, I didn't like the idea when he said he'll be busy over the month, and he probably couldn't find time for me.  Cuz I really wanted to see him. I have a very hard time in college sometimes, because I'm standing alone, and I wish he'll be here. But ironically, he managed to spend time with me, in fact, every weekend in that month without fail. :)

We care for each other, just like how other couples would. We're just different in expressing them. It is starting to feel okay if I don't see him every now and then because I got used to it. I am not a typical girl, and I don't want to be. Perhaps that doesn't make a simple because we are both not the main stream people when it comes to relationship. We share a same understanding in a relationship, not all however. That's because we are same type of person just that we're heading towards different direction. 

Sometimes, he seems to spend more time with other people, especially girls. I do understand his position and his lifestyle. I do not want to penalize that. But no doubt, I took time. Really some hard time to put it behind my mind, to understand and not question. I too, have a lot complications myself. Maybe I tend to forgive myself more. 

To me, I realise, being a girlfriend is one simple thing but being is smart girlfriend is something else. I guess this somewhat explains why until today, with so much unresolved complications, we are still together. 

He always looks me in the eye when he says 'I Love You'. Maybe he realises he probably repeated so often, he's afraid I don't believe it's true, he makes sure he adds, 'I really do love you baby'. :) I'm not as expressive as he is, but I'm sure he knows I love him more than words can say.

Sometimes, when we're in the car, he'll sing to me, and lifts my chin. 

Sometimes, when I'm mad, he kisses me to make me feel better. 

Sometimes, he'll snuggle me from behind, and it's the most comfortable feeling I ever had until now.

Sometimes, he spoils me a lot.

I don't know how far we go. I will leave the question to be answered in the future.

Until then, I love you baby.

Happy Valentine's Day. 

HuiJin Liew