dear you.
Probably somehow you are reading this. Probably I can never change how reality hit me. Once in a while I cant tell what is the right feeling to have. Sometime when you confessed to me, I couldn't say the same at all times. Simply because it didn't felt that way. Those words has been really easy for many people, and me for instance, at a certain period of my life. But I guess I just didn't want you to stop loving me when you learn how much I like you too.
I'm not sure actually. All I know, is that I don't want you to be ever unhappy near me. I can't help it, but it makes me so upset. Maybe I get paranoid. Knowing what I have done to you before makes me scared now. Last week at LTC, it surprised me to see him around. I didn't thought he'd be there. I miss him, that is for sure. I miss the moments we had spent together. I miss how he use to smile for the camera. I miss how he use to be. I knew now better than anyone else that tables has turned. Maybe all I have for him, was just what we missed. As for you, I've missed you, for you. Not any moments that I'm missing, because I know we will continue to make better memories. All I need is you near me.
Being classmates as well as couple isn't easy for me. Probably you've noticed, probably you'd wonder. Let me enlighten you. I detest how slow am I to picking up information in class and learning new skills that are literally ABC to you. Sometimes, you accidentally bump up your tone of frustration at me. I can't help it. I want to cry, want to shout back at you. But we are classmates. I cannot do that, that's too immature. I don't want us, in anyway, turn ugly. So once in a while you keep asking me how am I doing, and telling me steps by steps how to do this and that, but I get frustrated because I know I'm just merely listening to your instruction and not learning.
I'm sorry that sometimes you wouldn't understand why my mood sway so often, for numerous reasons. Sometimes I think certain words are better kept to myself. All I want you to know now, is that I really care for you. Your feelings matter a lot to me. I want to see you happy all the time. :D
love,
HuiJin Liew
I'm not sure actually. All I know, is that I don't want you to be ever unhappy near me. I can't help it, but it makes me so upset. Maybe I get paranoid. Knowing what I have done to you before makes me scared now. Last week at LTC, it surprised me to see him around. I didn't thought he'd be there. I miss him, that is for sure. I miss the moments we had spent together. I miss how he use to smile for the camera. I miss how he use to be. I knew now better than anyone else that tables has turned. Maybe all I have for him, was just what we missed. As for you, I've missed you, for you. Not any moments that I'm missing, because I know we will continue to make better memories. All I need is you near me.
Being classmates as well as couple isn't easy for me. Probably you've noticed, probably you'd wonder. Let me enlighten you. I detest how slow am I to picking up information in class and learning new skills that are literally ABC to you. Sometimes, you accidentally bump up your tone of frustration at me. I can't help it. I want to cry, want to shout back at you. But we are classmates. I cannot do that, that's too immature. I don't want us, in anyway, turn ugly. So once in a while you keep asking me how am I doing, and telling me steps by steps how to do this and that, but I get frustrated because I know I'm just merely listening to your instruction and not learning.
I'm sorry that sometimes you wouldn't understand why my mood sway so often, for numerous reasons. Sometimes I think certain words are better kept to myself. All I want you to know now, is that I really care for you. Your feelings matter a lot to me. I want to see you happy all the time. :D
love,
HuiJin Liew
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