that you'd always knew

So it was some while we haven't met one another. Today, we had our usual one hour talk again. Well. We talked about everything. I know, probably somehow what I write affects you and your actions, which brings me to what I wanna say today about us.

I was surprised to learn that you have always read the things I scribbled for you. First, I do feel a little embarrassed. Second, it did fit in the picture when you say what I write will affect your actions to take advantage of me. Like I always say to myself on how you always have the upper hand against me. So you had always knew. Then my next question is, why? Why do you still do so if you know my heart is just there for you?

Alright. I actually forgot what I wanted to add on this. I always crap to myself about things and I forget when I actually have the time to write them down. This is somehow annoying.