Little things that we miss.
It was one week ago that I finally spent the weekend with you. I had been missing you since. I closed my eyes and the image of us just keep flashing across my mind. I wonder if it occurs the same to you. Or are you just missing her?
I know I've done things so wrong. Once, worst the other. I had a hard time trying to keep up with your pace. Your playing around and fooling for fun, and your feeling for me, it's just as difficult to read as ever.
The first time I cried was for my ex-boyfriend who was unwilling to tell me some truth or to even try to put some sense to my head on whats going on. The second time, was you telling me that you liked me, just a little. The third, was last Monday. It's painful ecstasy that I need to release and that made me emotionally unstable. I just cried over everything I can imagine about. I want to be with you. That's one clear thing that I know.
I checked out the girl of your dreams, that you couldn't sleep because you missed her everyday. I realised why do you love her so much. She's your type. So talented and share such same interest and love for music and arts. Just your girl. I also too, realise my type. The guy that sings, that love whatever they do and very passionate about them. Enthusiastic man. You happen to be the type. I fall for you over and over again, that I'm convince, I'll have a hard time just trying to pretend like it's fine.
What I'm afraid most, is that you feel different about me, which you said not. You said I'll always be me, and your feelings for me is always the same. Some thing will always be missing anyway, whether if it's what we feel or what we do. I want to go back to where we are not apart, because it leaves so much room for me to doubt our feelings. You're like a drug. They say you're bad, you're doing me no good, but I just felt so right about you even if everything is wrong.
I know, even if the chances are there, you wouldn't take it either. I love and hate you so.
Penny told me that I should leave my boyfriend, cuz he's the constant and I had to move and for us, I'm the constant and you have to make the move. I'm pretty calm now, I'm not sure if I need the time out now, but I will need it for sure. Every now and then, I feel the need to stay apart. I haven't sought myself back for a long time. I keep moving on thinking that I'm improving myself to the better, but I missed who I was. I haven't been doing what I use to do for a long time. Like making random friends, hanging out with them all the time, and having private time doing sports or studying or working without having too much concerns about how about my boyfriend and all. It's not just about you. I'm like a parasite. I'm doing him no good at all and I'm gonna start taking him for granted if I don't stop myself from being like you.
Let me do all the bad things, let me make all the calls, let me bear all the consequences.
I know I've done things so wrong. Once, worst the other. I had a hard time trying to keep up with your pace. Your playing around and fooling for fun, and your feeling for me, it's just as difficult to read as ever.
The first time I cried was for my ex-boyfriend who was unwilling to tell me some truth or to even try to put some sense to my head on whats going on. The second time, was you telling me that you liked me, just a little. The third, was last Monday. It's painful ecstasy that I need to release and that made me emotionally unstable. I just cried over everything I can imagine about. I want to be with you. That's one clear thing that I know.
I checked out the girl of your dreams, that you couldn't sleep because you missed her everyday. I realised why do you love her so much. She's your type. So talented and share such same interest and love for music and arts. Just your girl. I also too, realise my type. The guy that sings, that love whatever they do and very passionate about them. Enthusiastic man. You happen to be the type. I fall for you over and over again, that I'm convince, I'll have a hard time just trying to pretend like it's fine.
What I'm afraid most, is that you feel different about me, which you said not. You said I'll always be me, and your feelings for me is always the same. Some thing will always be missing anyway, whether if it's what we feel or what we do. I want to go back to where we are not apart, because it leaves so much room for me to doubt our feelings. You're like a drug. They say you're bad, you're doing me no good, but I just felt so right about you even if everything is wrong.
I know, even if the chances are there, you wouldn't take it either. I love and hate you so.
Penny told me that I should leave my boyfriend, cuz he's the constant and I had to move and for us, I'm the constant and you have to make the move. I'm pretty calm now, I'm not sure if I need the time out now, but I will need it for sure. Every now and then, I feel the need to stay apart. I haven't sought myself back for a long time. I keep moving on thinking that I'm improving myself to the better, but I missed who I was. I haven't been doing what I use to do for a long time. Like making random friends, hanging out with them all the time, and having private time doing sports or studying or working without having too much concerns about how about my boyfriend and all. It's not just about you. I'm like a parasite. I'm doing him no good at all and I'm gonna start taking him for granted if I don't stop myself from being like you.
Let me do all the bad things, let me make all the calls, let me bear all the consequences.
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