.

I find myself pathetic.

I always want to be someone else.
I feel like I am never good enough.
I don't feel content with what I have.
I desire things I cannot have.
I am always envious of others.
I always want to be someone else.

and thus this negative cycle continues.

I'm sad.
I feel unwelcome and annoying.
I mean, yes it's just in my head that I think so, but who doesn't want to be lovable right?

But what not.
No one gets it. No one cared.

I am like a jar where everyone puts in there own origami with their own stories of sadness and then thank me for being there for them and left this jar of sadness alone. Everyone just wants to share their piece of sad story with me, and no one cared if I ever have one too.

I'm so frustrated. I. can't. even.

Why can't I get lucky?