开玩笑。

开玩笑。

我一直都想要她开心，
i've always wanted her to be happy,
要她觉得幸福。。。
just want her to feel blissful.

我并非一次冲动上她家。
it's not a sudden decision to go to her house.
我想了整晚才决定的。
i've been thinking a lot before i made this decision.
一直想。。
a lot of thinking...
因我知上她家
because i know to go to her house,
一定会填麻烦。
will bring a lot of trouble to her
但，
but,
我就觉得
i just feel
她都病了，
she's sick
我也无法在她身边
but i couldn't be by her.
只希望能让她好一些。
just want her to feel better.

早上带凉茶让后上了她家。
morning, brought her the tea to her house.
我知到她不在家
i know she won't be at home.
已离开后。。
left for home,
回家就知道她一定吓了一大跳。
i know she'll be shocked.
她虽然说了谢我为她走一趟。
although she said thank you,
但她 有一句却让我好心疼。
but she said one word made me feel heart ache
她说“我很了解你的心意， 但是很恐怖。”
she said, " it's nice to give surprises but at the same time its lil scary"

这却不是第一次。
it isn't the first time.
我之前因为她说在校园很冷。
there's once she said she feel so cold in the lecture hall,
所以我就买了她一件冷依。
so i bought her a jacket to keep her warm.
那时我问了。
that time, i've asked
是她说 okay~
she said Okay~

当我送她， 她竟然说
when i gave her, she asked me
“你怎么这样~”
"why did you buy?"
那日我发现，
that day i realise,
原来一直她都当我说的每一句
all this while perhaps she assumed my every word
都开玩笑的吗?
its' just kidding?

那是我第一次
it's my first time
送了礼物却要后者脸皮受回来。
after giving out a present i have to ask it back
Haihzz~

自己真可悲~
so miserable~
shera说 "爱好累喔~"
shera said, "love is so exhausting~"
真的吧~
perhaps it is~