Drenched

Finally, I saw you again since Penang Hat. throughout the time, things had been unknown. Not knowing what were you thinking, not knowing how it felt like to talk to you everyday. The weather has been gloomy all the days here in Nilai. I don't know why, but gloomy days affect me. Affects how I felt bout you. I wake up every morning and walk to the bathroom and I start missing you because I know when I woke up, I had dreamt about you. It hasn't happen for a long time and now that this returns, I keep falling back in, as if it's a trap. 

I''ve missed you so much I want to hear your voice and I want to see you smile and feel your warmth. I want to call you and just cry. 

When you slide over, I felt my adrenaline. I felt my urge to fight for our friendship that to one point, it's sinking back in. I always want to show you what I could do, and I finally did. Only if we hugged, it would be another perfect moment. 

I am somehow very inclined to want to get to know you all over again. Like we've never met. Only if we could make the chance happen for us to take again. Only if we take them. I haven't been expressing my feelings because I had too little to feel. I feel neutral lately. 

I sometimes don't get why. It's like you read me, when I really want to see you or talk to you, you often appear eventually. D: idk if it's good or not. I feel happy of course, but troubled as well. I know when you leave, I didn't want you to. 

I am trying to move, maybe if we could start over, or if we could move on.

But I just want to tell you this, that I missed you.