even dreams gave up.
I guess this should be a good news. Last time around, I had my feelings a little messed up again. Thank god the holiday drew near and we manage to get apart for a some time. In the mean time, things gotten a little better Nonetheless, I do not learn how to express love so easily the way you did. As soon as the holidays ended, I was feeling okay. I don't get to be awfully in love with you all the times. Maybe thats why you find me difficult to impress.
Last few nights, we did something new. We recall dreams. You had really funny dreams; being chased after, being able to swim, being some Shaolin kid. I had dreams, but I dont have good memories like you do. I can't really recall them. But I can remember feeling something. Edmund, he appeared as usual in my dreams but this time it's different. I used to run to him and talk to him, and it feels like it was before. This time, I did not. I looked away. I guess, dreams reflected our subconscious. How he would always be there, how I'd always miss him, but how I can never go back just because I want to. That even opportunity for me to spend time with him, I'd throw away because I know can't do that anymore. I know he wouldn't care if I ever liked him, and how I use to desperately wants his attention. Even dreams gave up seeking his attention.
Today, I had my worst time or I should say period. It cramps so bad I had cold sweat and no position that can actually calm it down. I want to scream so badly and wish it'd go away. I find it so difficult to walk a floor below just to meet you. Thank you for being around. I had so hard time wanting to calm down and you are just the warmth I ever needed. I appreciate all the love and care you are giving me.
Chapter 2: our dates is our second chapter I made for you. I didn't know it can make you cry. I did know you'd be touched but, you are really in love in this whole thing. I want to reciprocate it back to you. I want my remora to know I'd try my best for you. You knew my every condition, and you are so ever ready to embrace this. You're insanely in love.
Dear lover boy,
i love you too.
HuiJin Liew
Last few nights, we did something new. We recall dreams. You had really funny dreams; being chased after, being able to swim, being some Shaolin kid. I had dreams, but I dont have good memories like you do. I can't really recall them. But I can remember feeling something. Edmund, he appeared as usual in my dreams but this time it's different. I used to run to him and talk to him, and it feels like it was before. This time, I did not. I looked away. I guess, dreams reflected our subconscious. How he would always be there, how I'd always miss him, but how I can never go back just because I want to. That even opportunity for me to spend time with him, I'd throw away because I know can't do that anymore. I know he wouldn't care if I ever liked him, and how I use to desperately wants his attention. Even dreams gave up seeking his attention.
Today, I had my worst time or I should say period. It cramps so bad I had cold sweat and no position that can actually calm it down. I want to scream so badly and wish it'd go away. I find it so difficult to walk a floor below just to meet you. Thank you for being around. I had so hard time wanting to calm down and you are just the warmth I ever needed. I appreciate all the love and care you are giving me.
Chapter 2: our dates is our second chapter I made for you. I didn't know it can make you cry. I did know you'd be touched but, you are really in love in this whole thing. I want to reciprocate it back to you. I want my remora to know I'd try my best for you. You knew my every condition, and you are so ever ready to embrace this. You're insanely in love.
Dear lover boy,
i love you too.
HuiJin Liew
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