square one.

In a way I hope I was doing what I was doing now, is the right thing to do. I don't know why did I meant so much to you. yes, I know cuz I was confused myself too. We were in something I called it transition period. We are trying to adapt to it. I was. And I guess my decision never changed but my feelings had been drastic. I'm not sure was I thinking, or was I feeling. But I won't deny how touched I was whenever you tell my how you actually felt. I feel very appreciated but I feel so mean cuz I can't seem to return you the favor. I just don't do favors. I'm mean to myself.

Nonetheless, I wish I can tell you how my heart often skip a beat when you kissed me. Still would until today. You are the only person I tell everything to. How exactly I feel, but you aren't the one who knows the bigger picture. Ed and I aren't just friends. It's not such a simple story, I was never a simple person.

Oh. Btw i realized something they have in common. How it defines what type I preferred. They sing, and they are the best in their own field. LOLs. They have this particular song they somewhat represents them. So yeah.

But my conclusion stays the same. I'm not leaving to anyone or anywhere. All i want, is to do what I want. I don't want to feel constrained. This is tough. I don't know when can I actually feel committed to only one. I feel very much too comfortable with them around.

HuiJin Liew