the comfort zone
Time flies, and it's been a while semester I spent everyday in college, seeing him. It's the last day today. It's the little comfort being around with him. Not like he cared a lot bout me, it;s just the little silly things he tend to do. Leon asked, why him? I said, you don't know him yet. He's a different person when he's on his feet for Ultimate. He's just Special Ed. :)
After Spinnin' Down Under at Johor, we got closer with the Stingrays, and I got even closer to him. Nonetheless, every time I heard something else about someone else, I knew I'm just his Touch N'Go. Irony indeed. Of course who would know better than I do, on what state are we in. What shit have I gotten myself into. So I tell myself, screw it Jean. Screw it. But how I just sank in his arms when he pulls me closer, when he gives me his cardigan, how he caresses my head, how he eases my aches. All the little things. And how he asked for a kiss before I left to bed last night. That moment, just makes me feel so sweet. I love how I can just lean on him. :D
ZJ said he's happy for me to see me being happy after a talk with baby boy. I'm not too sure tho. It's just just so happen a good time I guess. I know how much he cared, and I just have proved to him, how he's amazingly good, but he's just not for me. Things changed between us. Maybe it's because of Ed. But doesn't matter, cuz I know what I plan to do with him. The difficult part has to be his parents. Cuz his parents thought we are really together. Now what?
I just felt much comfortable with Ed cuz I guess we know what state is this and how we had feelings for someone else, I guess.
Baby boy has been thru some rough time. His baby pug left. I supposed he was trying to say he felt lonely. Anniversary is 11 days from now. We have days we don't talk at all. We find out where each other went, through social network sites. What happen to us? By the time I get back. I'll be out traveling again. Lately I didn't have the thought to meet him. Okay, I did. Once. And in a way, I glad I didn't ask cuz I'm of with Ed.
People continue to question my relationship state with Ed. In a way, I hope we were more than just complicated, or more than just friends, or BFFs or whatever.
In short. It's just...why? Why again someone who doesn't; give a damn about me? Why be a fucking Dominoes?
HuiJin Liew
After Spinnin' Down Under at Johor, we got closer with the Stingrays, and I got even closer to him. Nonetheless, every time I heard something else about someone else, I knew I'm just his Touch N'Go. Irony indeed. Of course who would know better than I do, on what state are we in. What shit have I gotten myself into. So I tell myself, screw it Jean. Screw it. But how I just sank in his arms when he pulls me closer, when he gives me his cardigan, how he caresses my head, how he eases my aches. All the little things. And how he asked for a kiss before I left to bed last night. That moment, just makes me feel so sweet. I love how I can just lean on him. :D
ZJ said he's happy for me to see me being happy after a talk with baby boy. I'm not too sure tho. It's just just so happen a good time I guess. I know how much he cared, and I just have proved to him, how he's amazingly good, but he's just not for me. Things changed between us. Maybe it's because of Ed. But doesn't matter, cuz I know what I plan to do with him. The difficult part has to be his parents. Cuz his parents thought we are really together. Now what?
I just felt much comfortable with Ed cuz I guess we know what state is this and how we had feelings for someone else, I guess.
Baby boy has been thru some rough time. His baby pug left. I supposed he was trying to say he felt lonely. Anniversary is 11 days from now. We have days we don't talk at all. We find out where each other went, through social network sites. What happen to us? By the time I get back. I'll be out traveling again. Lately I didn't have the thought to meet him. Okay, I did. Once. And in a way, I glad I didn't ask cuz I'm of with Ed.
People continue to question my relationship state with Ed. In a way, I hope we were more than just complicated, or more than just friends, or BFFs or whatever.
In short. It's just...why? Why again someone who doesn't; give a damn about me? Why be a fucking Dominoes?
HuiJin Liew
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