mind game

I don't know why, but it upsets me when my boys are upset for whatever reason it is. Zhong Jian never shuts his mouth and he's always smiling. I always feel better when he is around. I was never really mad at him even when I tried. :)

My baby boy? I keep telling myself when I see news about him that its okay, don't think HuiJin, keep scrolling. Yes. I really did that. I just scroll away. He sent me another song. I almost cried. I cannot believe how I could closely relate myself to the song until he sent it to me. "For the first time", The Script.

These times are hard. They're making us crazy, don't give up on me baby.  I'll remember that baby <3

And the times now, is really testing me. He confessed to me last night, I think its really messed up. I always mess up things. I get myself confused. I don't know how to respond, I just let him hold my hands. I did not say anything I shouldn't either, but its just, I woke up feeling so messed up. I should have known, I just didn't know he'll confess. I guess it was a sudden rush, cuz one does not simply sees a man cry.

Baby, please hold on to me. I promise I'll clear the mess here.

HuiJin Liew