Just another part of me
I guess as time flies, we change. Ever since I've stepped up into a new life in INTI, I prepare myself in building a separate identity. I want to be those average girl that mix well with people, and have a lot of friends, and be friendly and sweet and likable and girl. Well, being a girl.
But soon time passes and I truly did adapt to what I opt for. A new identity. A more common identity. I just want to stay average, but special. But early this year, I began to realize that I'm dealing with my own split personalities. The people who knows me before and after determines my attitude on I behave. I hope I did change for the better. But somehow, past never leaves us. The fact of my past, of who I was, what I do, it's there and it cannot change. People make fun of me, people laugh. And all I can do is smile.
Some people say that I'm hell of a quiet person. Not exactly.
Some say I have lots of friends. Not exactly either.
There's exactly, no one that knows me well enough, cuz what they see is what I choose to show. Sometimes I think I talk too much, so I choose to remain silent. I try not to pose judgement. I tried.
Sometimes I wore mask around, I really got myself rather confused with who am I really?
I find too many parts of me that I have no idea which is true.
I ask myself, after so long, you have not given up, why now?
I probably have lost myself but I'm determined to find myself back. I want to keep myself on track on the basis principle I always have. Not to give up, always to keep faith. I use to be rather aggressive. Fast, Aggressive and Accurate. I no longer am able to hit there now. But I promise myself to make it up. I'll always be here for myself when everyone isn't. Right?
Cheers,
HuiJin Liew
But soon time passes and I truly did adapt to what I opt for. A new identity. A more common identity. I just want to stay average, but special. But early this year, I began to realize that I'm dealing with my own split personalities. The people who knows me before and after determines my attitude on I behave. I hope I did change for the better. But somehow, past never leaves us. The fact of my past, of who I was, what I do, it's there and it cannot change. People make fun of me, people laugh. And all I can do is smile.
Some people say that I'm hell of a quiet person. Not exactly.
Some say I have lots of friends. Not exactly either.
There's exactly, no one that knows me well enough, cuz what they see is what I choose to show. Sometimes I think I talk too much, so I choose to remain silent. I try not to pose judgement. I tried.
Sometimes I wore mask around, I really got myself rather confused with who am I really?
I find too many parts of me that I have no idea which is true.
I ask myself, after so long, you have not given up, why now?
I probably have lost myself but I'm determined to find myself back. I want to keep myself on track on the basis principle I always have. Not to give up, always to keep faith. I use to be rather aggressive. Fast, Aggressive and Accurate. I no longer am able to hit there now. But I promise myself to make it up. I'll always be here for myself when everyone isn't. Right?
Cheers,
HuiJin Liew
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