Life like a drama

I took time when I head towards Publika today. I went with confused thoughts. I walked on straight there. When I saw the entrance, I froze for a second. I looked inside and I saw him. I didn't know why, but I walked away. I was nervous, I start to panic. 

I don't know why I didn't want him to see me anyway. I went in to get ice-cream. He was just packing to leave. He was looking outside, and I was just sitting there. My thoughts went blank. He left the place, and I had the urge to follow him. I don't know why. He didn't saw me anyway, and I lost him at the third time.  

I keep telling myself, if you see him again, you better scream for him and hug him. I ran around looking for him. I knew I had lost him in the crowd anyway. 

So I went back. I asked myself, am I doing the right thing? Should I let him know I was there. But I guess he had many people to take notice of. He didn't notice me. I always believe we will always feel when each other is near but this was an exception. 

I guess it was getting clear to me, that we didn't fell the same for each other. We did not. But he was happy today. I didn't want to upset him. I don't know. 

Can I choose to run away again?

I can feel myself freaking out, I can feel myself so scared.

I really want to run away. 

HuiJin Liew