one fine day
One morning,
Mommy asked me, why is there yellow stain on your pillow? Saliva ah?
I'm like nooooo, cannot be! then I thought about it.
Been watching a movie, about the guy cheating on the girlfriend, and she found out. I can relate it so near, but I honestly cannot help but to think of him sometimes. Sometimes, even more than my boy. At first, I didn't intend to tell anyone about what happen between me and baby boy, but I somewhat told Samantha and Wan Jia. But I didn't cry, and they didn't comment. Too distant to comment, nothing to comment.
I still don't know what I want. I actually hope I still have a crush on Max, then I know at least it won't go so wrong now. Not like it is. So messed up. The first thing I want to do, is to see my baby boy when I get back, but I haven't even met him yet. I have to make an appointment. It's worst than seeing a doctor. At least I would know my turn to see the doctor.
I'm trying not to talk to him, and I'm trying not to be pushy to want to see baby. Cuz if baby wants to see me, he would find time. Maybe we are both equally tired and confused. So we're letting it float. Let confusion stay at the back, the smiles kept on our face. I want to be loved, oh yes I really do.
HuiJin Liew
Mommy asked me, why is there yellow stain on your pillow? Saliva ah?
I'm like nooooo, cannot be! then I thought about it.
It's tears mom.
Been watching a movie, about the guy cheating on the girlfriend, and she found out. I can relate it so near, but I honestly cannot help but to think of him sometimes. Sometimes, even more than my boy. At first, I didn't intend to tell anyone about what happen between me and baby boy, but I somewhat told Samantha and Wan Jia. But I didn't cry, and they didn't comment. Too distant to comment, nothing to comment.
I still don't know what I want. I actually hope I still have a crush on Max, then I know at least it won't go so wrong now. Not like it is. So messed up. The first thing I want to do, is to see my baby boy when I get back, but I haven't even met him yet. I have to make an appointment. It's worst than seeing a doctor. At least I would know my turn to see the doctor.
I'm trying not to talk to him, and I'm trying not to be pushy to want to see baby. Cuz if baby wants to see me, he would find time. Maybe we are both equally tired and confused. So we're letting it float. Let confusion stay at the back, the smiles kept on our face. I want to be loved, oh yes I really do.
HuiJin Liew
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